faith unfaded

It’s the first time in a long time I’ve wanted to just disappear. It’s only because of my dad that I don’t.

I’ve done that to him too many times in the past. I would never do it again—and especially not after my mother just died.

Satan has me paralyzed in his crosshairs. I’m too broken to fight.

I’m so tired of being judged and misunderstood. How can one be fallible at times, but immediately repent and follow biblical principles, only to become the villain every time.

A heartfelt apology put me on trial with the ones who were holding me up in my grief. When their arms of love became fistfuls of stone, I broke.

I just want to disappear.

My mom has been in the ground one week. My heart still won’t accept it. When you break broken people even more, you remove what little hope they are hanging onto.

I’m not in a good place today.

Be careful with people who are already at their lowest. Your words can make or break them.