faith unfaded

I used to listen to this song a lot. It was a reminder that the Lord would hold us through the storms of life.

🎶 So when you’re on your knees and answers seem so far away
You’re not alone, stop holding on and just be held
Your world’s not falling apart, it’s falling into place
I’m on the throne, stop holding on and just be held 🎶

For me, the song was finding solace in the midst of chaos.

But since the death of my mother last week, it’s held new meaning. The tsunami of grief that has overtaken my body today has sent me to bed. Pain has seeped into every muscle and bone. Fatigue has left me weaker than ever.

Determined to keep myself from sinking into depression, I made myself get up and go to church this morning. Dad and I both did. Our church family has been invaluable to us.

But I just wanted to get home and go back to bed.

I thought I’d be able to choose when I’d rest and when I’d stand strong. Today the choice was made for me. All I could do was just be held.

Just Be Held (Casting Crowns, 2014)

🎶 Hold it all together
Everybody needs you strong
But life hits you out of nowhere
And barely leaves you holding on
And when you’re tired of fighting
Chained by your control
There’s freedom in surrender
Lay it down and let it go 🎶

He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. Psalm 91:4

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