🎶 Can I be honest?
I just wanna know that You still got this 🎶
It had been months of coasting on the waves of joy, like a surfer who’d settled right into the pocket of a perfect wave.
Then it all came crashing down.
For the first time in a long time I questioned my purpose. Had I been staying the course, only to discover I wasn’t even on the right trail? I’d been walking by faith, not sight (2 Corinthians 5:7) but I never felt like I was walking blind.
All of a sudden, I was aware that I couldn’t see.
My faith began to waver. I know you told me to do this, Lord, but…
I questioned myself. I questioned Him. Then I felt guilty for doubting the One who’d never given me reason to question His faithfulness before.
I’d heard this song a few times before my ears picked up on the line… Can I be honest?
Of course we can be honest with the Lord. He sees our hearts; He knows the words hidden there, regardless of what comes out of our mouths. But this song gave me permission to tell the truth. I needed to know that He still had this.
I’d been looking at the waves surrounding the boat, while the Master had been peacefully napping. It was okay to ask, but His answer was the same as it had been to the disciples in the boat. He
“Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” Mark 4:40
🎶 When I’m scared of the dark, You’re right there with me
Your kindness never fails, it’s always reaching after me 🎶
And He did reach after me. He sent people to say the words I needed to hear. He opened the doors that were meant to be opened. And He kept closed the ones I wanted to walk through, but were not meant for me.
I was honest with Him, and in return, He was honest with me.
Honest (Leanna Crawford, 2024)
Though I’ve sung a thousand times
You’re perfect and You’ll never leave my side
Can I be honest?
I just wanna know that You still got this
When all I’m holding onto is a promise
God, You promised that You’ll never leave me
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