A couple of weeks ago I wrote about all of the new exciting things going on in my life. It would be busy, but very rewarding. (HELLO 2020!)
And it has been. Both busy… and rewarding.
But, as with most things in my life, it’s come with a new revelation.
Driving home the other day from a twenty-minute errand that ended up taking three hours, I was tired yet felt strangely invigorated.
What’s going on with me? I wondered. I’m happier than ever yet I’m busier than ever. Why is that?
The answer was immediate.
Because you are finding purpose in being so busy.
It made sense.
I thought I’d just developed the holiday blues sometime between Thanksgiving and Christmas. I went from down-and-out to truly depressed. I remember thinking my life had no purpose. The business had all but come to a stop. We weren’t doing a whole lot of ministry outside of church services because people were so tied up with traveling and shopping. We were in a financial slump. My increasingly dour mood had made it impossible to work on my Bible study.
I was a woman without purpose.
Or so I thought.
In that instant, I realized that I’d completely missed the mark.
My purpose should NEVER be found in how busy I am.
And in very deed for this cause have I raised thee up, for to shew in thee my power; and that my name may be declared throughout all the earth. (Exodus 9:16)
No matter how many translations I use, I won’t find one that says “I have raised you up, Jeanni Thrasher, so that you can do many wonderful things for Me and feel good about yourself.”
MY purpose is found in Christ Jesus. And, even then, it’s not about MY PURPOSE in life anyway. It’s about His Purpose through me.
Doing good works is good, I won’t discount that. But it shouldn’t cause me to get so distracted that I neglect to spend time alone with Him.
He called me for HIS purpose, for HIS glory, and I should never lose sight of that….