faith unfaded

I’m not up…I’m not down. I’m just kind of here.

Lounging around in sweats and snacking way too much (I’ve got to turn off Food Network!) it’s just a lazy day.

I recognize the meaning of the holiday. I am grateful for the veterans who served and the men and women who are still serving today. My heart is with the moms because I remember well the feeling of helplessness when your child is deployed overseas.

I’m cleaning a little, cooking a little, and reading a little. I can’t seem to get very motivated to do anything that requires creativity. I worry when these moments come. I hate it when joy is not at my fingertips.

I am neither sad nor worried. I’m not processing negative emotions or mind spiraling. I’m just having a so-so kind of day.

I’m not sure why but I am certain of one thing. These are the days I draw closer to the Lord instead of running away. Like a child who clings to her mother’s dress when uncertainty arises, I am reaching for the hem of His garment as well.

It is the safest place I know to be right now.