If you or anyone in your house has long hair, you’ve no doubt encountered clog drains at some point. That hair just wraps around, coiled and unmoving, until no water can pass through at all.
Sometimes a bottle of Drano will help. Sometimes you have to call the plumber. But somebody or something has to get in there and unclog that drain.
Between my long hair and my husband’s almost-as-long beard, we are no strangers to pulling out wads of hair in sink and tub drains.
But the mess I just unclogged wasn’t in my bathroom at all; it was in my heart.
A spiritual clog is ten times worse than a physical one.
I knew there was a battle. I’d even written about it. Car repairs, a needed floor repair, health issues….it seemed like the more that went wrong, the less I turned to God.
Shouldn’t it be the opposite?
But I’m a control freak. Ask anyone; they’ll tell you.
The problem with being a control freak is that you don’t leave much room in your life for God to operate.
When you don’t allow God to operate in YOUR life, He can’t use you in others’ lives.
My husband would ask me, “When are you going to write again?” I’d get frustrated with him. Didn’t he understand? I WANTED to write but had nothing to say. My well was dry.
It was all because of that clog.
Sure, I’d pray. And that still, small voice would gently remind me. You’ve got to let go.
But I couldn’t. Or rather, I wouldn’t.
I’m not sure that I ever made a conscious decision to let go. What I did was I got up, I stopped hiding out from the world, and I became obedient. I visited, I ministered, I shared with those I came in touch with. Little by little, I felt myself letting go. There’s nothing like ministering to others to put your own problems in perspective.
It was as if a bottle of Liquid Plumber had been poured into my heart and unclogged the drain that had been choking the very life out of me.
And just like a real drain, the water became flowing through.
The words I’ve written this week have flowed freely. They’ve bubbled up from inside me and I pray that with each devotion, each blog post, and each chapter the Lord is able to use my words to reach someone else.
I also pray that He helps me keep that need for control in check.
Of all my shortcomings, it’s the one that gets me in trouble the most.