faith unfaded

I saw this post while scrolling through Facebook this morning that stopped me in my tracks.

Your nervous system will always choose familiar chaos over unfamiliar peace until you learn to heal and choose differently- Unknown

There it was…over 40 years of my life!

How many times had I written about how I love-hated the roller coaster? That the pendulum between depression and euphoria swung so wildly but it was normal? I didn’t want boring, humdrum…I craved the chaos.

I didn’t know any other way.

A friend insisted I learn to control my mind. I insisted it was impossible. My mind was much stronger than I was. IT had a mind of its own.

Still I tried hard to control it, to stop letting the chaos reign supreme.

I failed miserably. The highs were so high I was often in a manic state. The lows were so low I’d become suicidal.

I was trying to silence the devil in my head on my own. That never works. You are no match for Satan.

But Satan is no match for God.

Once I handed the battle- and the mission to control my mind- over to God, He calmed the chaos. He helped me heal. He showed me how to choose differently.

Now the chaos is unfamiliar and immediately rebuked when it makes an appearance. The peace is familiar and guarded like Fort Knox.

I once thought the switch would make me feel dead and turn me into a boring nobody.

That was a lie from Hell.

Replacing Satan’s chaos with God’s peace brought me back to life and turned me into somebody whose life makes a difference in the Kingdom.

Thank you, friend, for setting my feet on the right path.

Thank you, Jesus, for walking that path with me, even when I tried to veer off.

Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly. Matthew 11:28-30 (MSG)