My daughter called me yesterday and she was feeling a little stressed. She was learning some new programs at work and frustrated because she wanted to reach that mastery level without going through the learning curve.
Halfway through my pep talk (“You learn from your mistakes.” “One day this will be second nature to you.”) I realized that I should’ve been standing in front of the mirror while giving that advice.
I am the absolute worst at wanting the mountaintop experiences without the valleys. I want the victory without the battle. And I want to cross the finish line without having to run the race.
It doesn’t work that way.
The sad thing is, what I’m doing is for the Lord. At least, it’s supposed to be. I don’t think He is going to pleased with the end result if I’m a crab through the whole journey.
So I’m committing to doing better.
It isn’t easy. I’m trying to build both a church and a ministry website. I know nothing of website building, by the way, so I liken this to learning French. I’d finally started to understand a little when summer came (aka completing our new house) and I took a break. Now I’m in French 2, not really remembering French 1, and never knowing a drop of French before I started, save for the numbers 1-10. So I’m basically a toddler in the deep end with floaties.
The floaties being the Help Desk at Word Press. Who I just snapped at after they sent me an article on setting up my WooCommerce settings.
“Do you think I just didn’t bother trying on my own first before BOTHERING you?” was my uncharacteristically caustic reply. Obviously it hadn’t worked and I had actually copy/pasted that article in my query to begin with to show them what I’d already done! But that wasn’t the point. I’m sure if they looked at the website they thought, “Hmmm…devotions? maybe she should read them instead of writing them.”
And they’d be right. It isn’t their fault I don’t understand code. I DO understand Jesus…and His word…and I most certainly wasn’t exhibiting that. Yes, this is stressful. I’ve put off blogging because I was trying to get the websites launched first. But that may take longer than expected and I know how to blog.
Come to think of it, I was pretty clueless about blogging when I started as well. And now, it’s easy. Second nature, you could say, daughter dear. So that’s encouraging. To me and hopefully to you.
In the meantime, I’m starting each day in my front porch rocker, reading the Word of God before I even turn the computer on.
Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. Psalms 51:10